Tuesday, December 2, 2014

school and snot.....and more snot

Carter started school in September, all day five days a week...The day I found out I was a wreck. I was NOT ready for my child to go to school that long! (FYI I got over it...I CHERISH those six hours I have alone) But, with starting school means getting colds A LOT. My poor child has had at least 3 colds in two months. 
Smiley360 gave me a mission...Children's Mucinex....and I have to say it works! He had a cold for three weeks and NOTHING was working...even his prescription medicines!!! This medicine came just in time and after that initial dose I saw a whole new child...he was happy (minus the "gross" taste he claims) and didn't have a constant faucet nose!!! He only needed three doses in four days to get over his cold.

I cant say anything bad about this stuff. My son can. lol he hates the taste of it, but I told him that the bad tasting things are what make you get better faster! And that mom is always right!!!!



Tuesday, October 9, 2012

loss

Its only been three days since my mom passed. The initial shock is over, but when you lose a parent its always going to be there...that empty space is always going to be there.

Losing a parent is never easy and I never thought it was going to happen. I mean I knew someday it would, but not how it happened. We were having a party for Carter and my dad called me. We booked it back over the boarder to Michigan.

It was sudden, she didn't even know what hit her when it hit. She had no pain. She just told my dad it was going to be one of those days that it is hard to breathe and then he looked over and she was gone. I saw her Friday and she was happy and excited to go away for the weekend (which is what they did Saturday when she passed) They were up north looking at the leaves.

We knew it was going to happen. She had a heart attack when I was 15 (16 years ago) and they gave her 10 years. Then 5 years or so ago they told us that the blockage was just to bad in one of the arteries that they couldn't do anything for it and it was only time. She was due to get a new aortic valve in a few months as well.

What matters the most to me is that she got to be a grandma for 2 years. Carter was her pride and joy. I"m happy she got to see him one last time and said that she loved him. He knows shes not here he goes around and says "gramma gone"  Just the other day he took an old cell phone, opened it and went "hello gramma" I lost it. I know he misses her so much too. Im happy she got the time she did to be a grandma. She wanted to be one so bad.

I am doing ok until I think about the small things Carter does or says about her. I had the joy of going through all the photos for the dvd the funeral home is making and it has helped. Her memory is always going to live on in photos because she took so many! I had to go thru a memory card of 1106 photos! It was fun though, my brother and I laughed at the old photos and how they looked, even how we looked int he 80s.

As much as I want to break down and cry and hide under a rock, I try to remember the good things about her. All the arguing and bickering we did means nothing to me now. Death truly changes you when it is some one close to you. She is in no pain and has no worries now. It makes me happy to know she isn't suffering any more.

We all love and miss her dearly.

Sunday, September 30, 2012

The Battle

We are having two major battles here. One is milk, the other bed.
The problem with milk is that if he gets to much he cant #2 right! I had to take him off it while he was sick and then I gradually put him back on it a little at a time. I thought I had a good system going (3 times a day at meals) and then BOOM he starts puking from gagging again. So we stopped milk for another day, just to make sure (thank God for yogourt and cheese right?)
My solution, no milk at night...He gets two take and toss cups during the day. One in the morning ( this doesn't include his cereal milk) and one at lunch. I found out that if he gets any type of milk before sleeping time he gags.
I thought of switching him to soy/almond milk at the time, but I dont think its an intolerance issue. Its his stupid sickness!

As for bed, we changed his bed to a toddler day bed. Since he has been sick he has slept with me (irrational fear of him not breathing from compensating) So now that he is better he can go back in his bed. Easy right? NOPE. He refuses his bed to every degree he has. Night one he slept in there from 11-6 (with a bout of CIO) Last night was 9-6, no CIO, I sat next to him and moved away slowly ala Super Nanny. It worked too. He was out cold in 5 minutes and never made a peep!
I know one night isn't going to make a huge difference, but I Hope in some way it helped him understand that he needs to sleep in his bed again. We have done everything in our power to make his bed a cool place. He got a new night light...it has fish so its "Nemo" He has his whole gang of Sesame Street (plus 4 Elmos....I suspect he is the ring leader)

Its just amazing how little kids get something in their head and that is the way. Yea, I know my bed is better...but mama (and daddy) need time away from you!

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Sickness

These past three weeks have been the hardest weeks in my life. I was sick with the flu, it was not fun. I was lucky enough to have five days off to recover. But with that Carter got my sickness and it turned into pneumonia. It scared me so much to see him like that. He is still coughing from it today, but has great lung sounds and his xray was good too. His doctor has ordered him to be on his plumicort until march with no incidences. I hope to God that he does not get sick like this again these coming cooler seasons. It scares me so much that in his short life he has had three major lung sicknesses (RSV, bronchitis and pneumonia).
He hates to sit and take his medicine though. He is on albuterol (3-5 times a day) and the plumicort ( twice daily). His pedi has said to start to wean him off the albuterol. I was confused on the two medicines until last week.
Albuterol [I will call it AB] is a bronchodilator that relaxes muscles in the airways and increases air flow to the lungs.
Albuterol inhalation is used to treat or prevent bronchospasm in people with reversible obstructive airway disease. Albuterol is also used to prevent exercise-induced bronchospasm. (http://www.drugs.com/albuterol.html)

Pulmicor [I will call it P] contains budesonide which is a corticosteroid. Budesonide prevents the release of substances in the body that cause inflammation.
Pulmicort is used to prevent asthma attacks. It will not treat an asthma attack that has already begun. It works by decreasing irritation and swelling in the airways, which helps to control or prevent asthma symptoms. (http://www.drugs.com/pulmicort.html)

In a nut shell AB is fast acting, it lasts from 4-8 hours in the system and then you need another one. Right now Carter is getting minimum three to maximum five a day. The pedi wants him off them with in five days. P is the preventative medicine to try to stop the inflammation, like said above it will not stop it (which is what the AB is for). Now, for the next six months Carter is on the P and we will have him assessed again to see how is progress is.

What sucks is that this is the time he always gets sick, its just the time in general everyone gets sick. The weather is changing, allergies act up and sometimes it gets worse. I have to be on pins and needles every time the poor child coughs because it scares me that he could be sick again. I am always checking his lungs to make sure he is not wheezing. My EMT instructor was so right about not knowing your lung sounds until you hear them for yourself. Pneumonia sounds disgusting. I cannot even describe it to you. The best I can say is imagine having a wet rag in your lung and attempting to breathe.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9C5RFb1qWT8 ---> is what it sounds like. And for my baby to have that made it even worse.

What was even harder was that I was giving him the treatments and they were not working. It took a trip to the pedi and the ER (with a prescription for an antibiotic, which confirmed he had bacterial pneumonia)


As for the other man in my life, he isn't doing to hot either. He went into the hospital when I was sick with major chest pains and the doctors said he had massive reflux. They gave him some medication (which was to strong for him and made him sick) He went to his GP and he thinks he has an ulcer. He has a scope in November (two months away...joy) For now we are just doing trial and error for what he can do and cannot do. I have found some natural things to help him with the pain, as well as xantac to help in the mean time. We even got peppermint Altoids because I read that peppermint is supposed to help (double duty in some aspect too, fresh breath...calming stomach) It is so bad that he can't even work. He is taking a leave of absence starting very soon and moving back home. The stress is getting to both of us. He (and I and Carter) are miserable. I hate to see him like this because this is not him. He has lost a lot of weight because he can't eat.

What makes it harder is that he is 5 hours away and I cannot do anything to help. I feel so helpless because the man I love is in pain and I am supposed to be there for him and I can't be. He seems happier already that he will be home soon and get the rest he needs. He has told me for almost 2 weeks now that he hates his job because of the stress. I don't blame him. Pearson is a huge air port and he is running around the whole thing trying to check his guards and make sure they are doing their job. It may sound like an easy job, but there is so much he has to do regarding licenses (he needs his air side, one to drive on the tarmac, one to get into certain parts of the airport, etc) and they are hounding him. He works 12 hour days. Drives 45-90 minutes back and forth for a commute. And his words "deals with idiots" daily. Its all unneeded stress in his life. They ask him why he hasn't got them and he is honest and tells them that he has no time, even on his days off he doesn't want to deal with work (who does really?)

Right now we are just taking it one day at a time and hoping that everyone is going to get better in due time. Being sick is the hardest thing for a family. It puts so much stress on people. You can do everything to prevent it, but sometimes it just will not work.

Monday, August 27, 2012

its all about the money...and health

I was just talking to my mom about money...its always her main topic of discussion because there never seems to be enough. I was trying to tell her how to cut down on the things she doesn't need to make more money for the things she needs.
#1 is pop. Meijer has sales on pop at least twice a month for 8 bottles (20 oz) for 4 packs for $11, plus the .10 cent deposit. So, that is $14.20 a month on pop. If she cut that out that's $170.40 saved! You can even get soda water and add things to it for that fizz need and still save money.
#2 is potato chips. Its close to $4 a bag. You can get 5 lbs of potatoes for the same price and make your own. You can save almost $50 a year on that if you make your own, plus all of the other things you can do with potatoes.
#3 is snack food. Its empty calories in anyone's diet. Little Debbie needs to die sometimes. Your cheap "food" is killing us. Sure its yummy, but I can make cookies for cheaper than your 12 yummy treats. I prefer fruits and veggies over the snacks. I can feel better (and fuller) with something of health and nutrition. Like right now my fave meal is sauteed onions and mushrooms with some pepper and garlic salt with cottage cheese. Its so yummy!
Same goes with meat. The red meat all the time isnt good. Add some chicken or fish int here! I love fish I adore it really. There is so much you can add to it to make it taste awesome. A little spice goes a long way sometimes.

Sometimes its amazing what little things can help you. I am no exception. I have cut a lot of things out of my life to make sure Carter has the things he needs. I have cut out candy and pop and I honestly feel great. I just put things in water now to give me that sweet I crave. Even grapes kick the sweet tooth crave too. Now I dont go denying myself it either. I tend to have ice cream once a week or two just to give me a chocolate boost (Cookie dough ice cream all the way!) Plus I measure my stuff. You'd be amazed how far things go when you measure. Plus you don't over do it when you keep an exact amount of what you have.

Now that I have talked about making potato chips I am going to. Maybe that will be another post.

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

You can work out TO much!

I decided for my sanity to do one work out a day. The past week I did yoga or abs with the shred. I wasn't going to bed until 2am because I was so pumped! Maybe I can ease back into it, but for today I did abs and Jillian kicked my ass (as always) I couldn't even finish it because I was in pain...I stop when it gets to that hurt point. I did break a sweat at least. Tomorrow will be the shred...I'm kinda excited to do it again. I would do it today, but no way I am way to tired already. Jillian is killer to me.